You Wanted to Come to the Material World

Sunday March 21:  I was on the terrace chanting japa with Gurumaharaja.  We were walking back and forth together.  Gurumaharaja sat down in a chair and asked me “What is the news?”

I asked, “On what front?”  I am busy in so many areas.  Gurumaharaja asked, “What about Krishna, the Supreme Personality of Godhead?”

I went on to describe different services, LOK.STUDIO construction, etc.  I also changed the mood a little and spoke about some frustrations I was having with the workers, and some difficulties.  It probably sounded like I was complaining.

“You are the one who wanted to come here!” Gurumaharaja said in a chastising way.  It gave me the realization that coming to the material world is no bed of roses.  I should not be expecting everything to be easy as pie.

Through this exchange, I have some realizations.  I need to be more remoseful that I have come to this material world.  I need to be repentant.  I need to seek to overcome my envy of Lord Krishna and his devotees.  In the words of Sanatana Goswami, “Who am I and why am I suffering?” are the important questions I need to continously be asking myself.

Someday if I have the courage, I may ask Gurumaharaja, “Why did you come to the material world?”  I would not be suprised, if I was very suprised by his answer.